The Language of True Emotions
John was born in a small town in eastern Europe. His hometown was surrounded by green fields where shepherds would graze their sheep. He used to visit lush green jungles in the outskirts of his village to read his favorite books close to nature. It was right after his 14th birthday when he was studying in his 7th grade. He was a handsome lad with pink cheeks and thick curly hair. He had an attractive personality, and his blue eyes made him more attractive. Although he was young, he was immensely mature and was always curious to ponder over nature and the philosophy of life. He used to wonder about the limits of the sky, where it starts and where it ends. He used to think over the psychology of humans and what binds relations together. He always thought that boys of his age were more attractive than him, and he was not as charming as his friends. He doubted himself besides having such a charming personality. His thinking perspective was mature; however, he doubted his looks most often. It was not deliberate, but some inner feeling always triggered those thoughts. However, he was sure of himself about his mature personality. He loved to go out and sit close to nature, see butterflies flying around, and follow birds that fly from far places and disappear.
He had lots of free time on summer vacations in his 7th grad school. He met his uncle, who lived in another city for about one hour on a public bus service traveling from his home. He was greatly attached to his uncle and visited him whenever he had free time. They often used to meet on alternate weekends. His uncle was kind and used to show affection to him. Whenever he finds John, he used to take him out to visit different places or have food together. They used to have deep talks together. Especially John used to discuss his curiosity about nature with his uncle. He was the one to whom he could share his emotions. And his uncle was always keen to listen to him and discuss things. This created a friendly relationship between both.
One day John received a call from his uncle that he had an invitation for a visit organized by a travel agency to visit Moscow city. It was a big surprise for him, and he always wanted to travel around and see new places. His uncle was very excited and wanted to take him on the trip. John was also excited because he was fond of traveling, and this was the best opportunity to visit new places during summer vacations. There was one week left for the trip. John told her mom about the trip, and they started to prepare. He went shopping with his mother and bought new shoes, clothes, and a new bag. His mother helped him pack, and he couldn't wait for the trip. He thought that days were passing very slowly as he was very anxious. The plan was to gather at the city railway station and ride a train to reach the airport.
All the kids with their parents were gathered at the train station to take the train. It was a group of ten students along with one or two parents. They sat on a train at 2 PM, and the journey started in a very pleasant manner. John was sitting with the window seat was looking out towards bright fields that were glowing because of sharp sunlight. The train passed through forests, rivers, and villages, and at around 5 PM, they reached the airport. Their flight was at 9 PM, so they had their dinner at the airport and waited for boarding. At around 7, boarding started, and they sat in the plan.
It was 5 hours flight, and they reached Moscow at midnight, and they were taken to a hotel. They were tired, so they slept early. The next day they had planned to visit a fine art museum in Moscow. John did his breakfast and got ready for the trip.
When they entered the museum, John and his uncle went to the ancient archaeology section. Besides a statue, a girl curiously looked around a statue wearing a white dress. She was a beautiful litter girl with straight hair and brown eyes. John found an unknown attraction towards her, and he kept on staring at her for a long time. John didn't know what feelings were, but he found an immense attraction towards her. He wanted to approach her, but he was not able to talk. He kept on looking towards her anxiously. He did not know, but he was lost from his uncle, so his uncle came to him while looking all around. His uncle inquired him where were you, and he told that he found these statues very amazing, so he did not know about the time. John was lost in thoughts about the girl; he kept on looking at her whenever he could sneak through the eyes of his uncle.
John was anxious, he didn't know what all these feelings were, but the only thing he knew was that these feelings were amazing. That night John woke up late at night, thinking about her, he did not realize what had happened to him, but he was thinking of her during the whole evening. At night he looked out of his room window; a lamp was glowing outside. There was a bench beneath the lamp, and he imagined that he was sitting with her at night and sharing his feelings with her. John wanted to tell her all about himself, what he liked, what he thought about nature, how mountains inspired him and how he liked snow and forests. He was lost in these thoughts, and in the summer of Moscow, he felt like it was spring; he was feeling the fresh air of spring, the beautiful sun of spring, flowers, and greenery like all the beauty of nature spread around him that night. He didn't know how late it was, but he was in his thoughts when he slept.
They were going to the Moscow aquarium the next day; he wore his favorite jeans and shoes and made his hair. He went with his uncle to the aquarium, and he started to follow her again. He was so lost that he didn't know when he got to ladies apartment flowing her. A lady's voice shocked him, saying, come on, boy, you are on the wrong side. It was the girl's mother who was saying this to him.
The trip went on like this, and he was always around her. But soon, the day came when they were going back. When they arrived at the airport, John wanted to sit next to her, and her mom went to take something. He tried to fix the seat belt, but he could not do that. Lina realized that he was having a problem, so she stood up to help him. She just came close to her and had did not know what that feeling was. He just sat there, and Lina picked up the belt and started to fix it, but John felt that he was in a new world; he was just lost in it. It was the first time she came close to him. The feeling of warmth was untold. She helped her and sat in her seat, but John was in a state of trauma at that moment. He did not know what to do and how to behave in this situation. But he was in another world. He did not move for a long period. This made him astonished and shocked. Their flight landed, and they went to the train station; they waited for the train. John was so depressed that he may not see her again. He was trying to weep, but he gathered his courage not to. He wanted to talk to her; he went close to her but could not talk. He played Chess with his uncle there, and he bet himself that he would meet her in his life if he won. He played with the best of his abilities to win but eventually lost. He was so disappointed that he would never meet her again.
This feeling prevailed in him, but he started a plan, the organizer called the names of people, and everyone was replying. So he found the name of her mother. He was so happy to have it when he came home he purchased a phone directory the next day. And noted down all the phone numbers with the same name; about 40 had that name. So he filtered out the male names, and he was left with online 15 phone numbers.
The next day he started calling on these numbers, and when they picked up the phone, he asked about Lina, and amazingly on the third attempt, the lady on the other side asked him to wait. She was calling Lina. John was so excited his heart started to beat fast. He felt some force around his shoulders and started to sweat. After a while, there was a sweet voice, hello, hi, but John could not move; he gathered his courage and said hello, but could not say anything more. He was so depressed that he didn't feel able to talk. Now he got the phone number and address, so he went to their home in the next week. But there also he didn't go to their door. He never knew what he would say when someone from the other side came out, he was in this situation that he came back home.
Days kept on passing; he graduated from school university and went on to do a Ph.D. in philosophy. He found a teaching position in a university where he could express himself and teach his students how he would like to be taught. He was spreading his knowledge of philosophy and the nature of life, and the purpose of being in this life. He married his colleague at the age of 30. However, Lina's image never faded; there was an unfinished business that should have been completed. He wanted to give an end to the story. One day he searched her on Facebook and sent her a message and told her all about his feelings about her. It was astonishing to hear that she also felt the same, she thought that she was not worthy of him, she thought that she was not that beautiful and John is handsome, and maybe he was not feeling the same. It all ended in trauma, keeping everything in their minds, not sharing. But this made John a bit relaxed as he had offloaded a burden that he had been talking with him for long.
Sometimes in life, it is very difficult for us to break a small self-hurdle created by our illusion. This can leave you in despair for your whole life, so we should not be afraid of the consequences; tell us what you think. It is always better to share whatever you feel about others because others only know about you with your communication. No one is a saint who will know about what is going on in our minds. Life is short, so we should try to live it according to our will; otherwise, we will repent the whole life. Every moment is the right moment, and every time is the best time, you are the best, you are the worthiest person, so do whatever you like and express yourself openly.
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